I am sure this fear is not unlike that of many adoptive parents who ask themselves if they can really love a child they did not give birth to as much as one they did.
I am blessed to not have this particular fear, though I do wrestle with others.
I am praying for a way to take our two oldest with us to Ethiopia. I believe once they are there and see all those kids, meet them, form relationships, the fears will go away. They will understand.
Even if a way is not made available for them to go I know that oldest will still be a great big brother to his new siblings. Once he holds them in his arms it will be all over. His fears will be gone.
I believe this peace was given to me by God.
Before we adopted I prayed hard about the effect this decision would have on ALL of our children. God gave me peace then that all would be OK.
Zach is a good big brother.
Here he is helping Paige make sand castles in her sand box.
He helped her make a little river around her castle.
I predict next year at this time there will be a few more kids in the sandbox enjoying the attention of their big brother.