My nights have been filled with dreams again. Dreams of dark skinned children running towards me. For some reason they never seem to be able to make it all the way, we are reaching for each other but never touch.

Today my heart is aching for children I do not know. How can I feel such love for someone I have never met? I don't understand. There is a very real ache in my heart. I want to go and get my children.

Perhaps this is God's way of preparing my heart for our new children.

I really don't know and I don't pretend to understand these dreams.

I do feel peace. Peace that when we do receive our referral we will be going to pick up OUR children.

The ones God has picked out for our family.

Today we wait. We pray. We live in anticipation.

To take my mind off of my heavy heart we are headed out the door for a few hours at Chuck E' Cheese.

I'm not sure if it will work but I can guarantee you one thing.

This mama will have a very big headache in a few hours. However, the smiles on the kids faces will no doubt numb the pain quite a bit.

I'm putting on my happy face and heading out the door. I think I'll play a little pac man while I'm there.

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