I don't know what is wrong with me.
I am usually a glass is half full type of person but lately I have been feeling a lot more like the glass is half empty.
I want to stay in my bathrobe all day, lock my bedroom door, and not talk to anyone.
Not exactly practical for a mother of five.
The house is a mess, I can't seem to keep up with the clutter, which drives me absolutely INSANE.
I think this all started when Garrett went back to school last week and the other kids were still at home on the "it's still summer schedule".
I need them all to go back to school.
So I can clean my house from top to bottom and regain some order.
Those of you who are home schoolers I am in awe of you. I love my children more than anything in this world but if they do not go back to school soon you may have to lock me in a padded room for a while.
I think they feel my need for some time to myself. I heard them whispering to each other that something was wrong with Mom. I feel so guilty even writing those words down.
Mom's should not need time to themselves. We should always be happy, sweet, kind, and lovingly available.
Well, I have a confession to make. I am only human. I need my kids to go away for a few hours.
I seriously think I am starting to lose my mind. I had to solve a simple subtraction problem yesterday while paying some bills and it took me a full 30 seconds to remember how to subtract four digit numbers. What is up with that? I had a major panic attack thinking I was encountering an early Alzheimer's symptom.
Perhaps it is just a sign of exhaustion.
I have never had my kids home all summer. We have always been on a year round schedule. Three months on, one month off. I loved it. Just when the kids were getting a little bored they could go back to school. When you get tired of homework, it is time for another break. I love love love this schedule.
I will never have that schedule again now that I have High Schoolers.
Oh, well. I know they will go back to school next week and within a few days I will be missing them like crazy and wondering what I was complaining about.
I usually love my kids being home with me and dread them going back to school. That is why I really do not understand what has come over me.
I hope I wake up in the morning feeling like my old self. This new person...I really do not like her.
I hope she goes away soon.
Thanks for listening.
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